Day One

Love is patient is the first love dare. At first, when I first read Day one, my thoughts went directly to what my husband has done to me to make me impatient with him.... I had to re-read the words a second time -- and they stung. I reflected on all the times I am possitive I started the fights with my impatience and quick temper. I love my husband deeply and this was a hard fact to face for me.

My husband is away on buisness and has been since last week, so this where I have focused my patience. My husbands "buisness meeting" is really a ski trip with the men who head up the company. A perk of the job for my husband. I seem to stay at home on these meetings. The book asks if anything happened today to cause anger towards my husband. And the answer is yes. Today I had to take my son to the doctor for a check up from when he had viral encephalitis over the summer. I called him to discuss the treatment the doctor suggested. I felt that he didnt want to be part of this treatment and blew it off as though I needed to call his REAL dad. So, yes that upset me. I was tempted and did think disapproving thoughts, but I did not let it come out in words. Instead, I tried very hard to be patient and allowed him to talk things through. In the end, I saw his point of view by just being quiet and not allowing myself to be overcome by anger and hurt feelings. I have come to see through this excerise that I tend to jump to the defense quickly when it comes to issues with MY son. I need to realize that I just need to listen to my husband through to the end without jumping to conculsions. By not giving into anger and practicing patience, I learned why he made that comment. He meant that my son would do better with treatment if we could get his real dad involved. He never once said he wouldn't be involved.... in fact suggested a few people to call to get things started. I learned a big lesson today. I look forward to tomorrows dare.